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Fancy Was Her Name

I love people. Everybody. I love them, I think, as a stamp collector loves his collection. Every story, every incident, every bit of conversation is raw material for me. My love's not impersonal yet not wholly subjective either. I would like to be everyone, a cripple, a dying man, a whore, and then come back to write about my thoughts, my emotions, as that person. But I am not omniscient. I have to live my life, and it is the only one I'll ever have. And you cannot regard your own life with objective curiosity all the time...- Sylvia Plath

February 2013
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This has just been one of those weeks and I can't believe there's still another day to it :( Will's uncle Lee passed away. I feel like every other week there's a funeral to go to. It's so sad. He didn't get to see him a lot but he has very fond memories of him. When Will was high school rodeoing his uncle Lee would always try to make the ones in North Louisiana, where he's from.

Speaking of funerals, my aunt Ann isn't doing well. Ever since my uncle Harold passed, she just seems to be waiting for him to come back. Her daughter Cathy told my mom that she set all the arrangements from the funeral home around his chair and she just sits there all day. It breaks my heart. I want to go see her so badly but I don't know if I will ever be able to go to Maurepas again and not get teary eyed. My childhood was spent anticipating the weekends when we got to go to Maurepas. I still remember the excitement I'd feel when we passed over the bridge to go to the Black Lake Club because I knew right next door to that bar was my uncle Harold and he was going to see me and he was going to be beaming from ear to ear saying, "My baby" when he saw me and he'd give me his amazing hug. Just thinking about it I'm sobbing. There really is a big gap missing in the world without him and I know so many people feel it and I can't even imagine how big the gap is for aunt Ann. They were married 40+ years.

...I need a change of subject to collect myself and to also just get everything out of my head that's weighing me down right now. In 65 days I'll say "I Do" to the man who has been my constant companion for going on 9 years now. I can't believe it's nearly here. Our shower is right around the corner, March 16th (the day before my 24th birthday) and it's the day after Will, Bubba, Richard, and Big Will come back from the "bachelor party" fishing trip in Lake Fort, Texas. At some point during that week we are going to try to have a "girls night" which will basically consist of the girls going out to dinner and drinks. We might try to do a weekend at the Paragon too. Neither of us are really big into hitting bars or naked strangers so just spending time with our friends is more than enough for us.

After the wedding, Will's going to get with his new boss about helping us secure an Angola house. It's going to help out immensely because we'll be working on the loan application for the $300,000 to start up Will's cattle business, and we can sell our trailer to pad our savings account a bit (to help reimburse us a bit on wedding expenses.) We have incredible credit, so I don't see us having much trouble securing the loan, so after the loan goes through we'll be purchasing the land from Will's uncle and we'll live back and forth between Moreauville and Angola.

Other than the sadness, the wedding, and the plans of the future, there's really only my business and Will's school. My business is a whole mess of stuff that would take a whole new post, but everything going on with that is completely positive. The week after our shower I have two 7 1/2 page term papers due. I'm so glad Benny is going to be helping me with that. I can barely get through the stuff I'm doing for Will with everything on my plate. If I had to do the full course load, I'd be a mess. I did get an "outstanding" from the bitch ass Psychology teacher on my take on "Why do you think we hold thin as the standard for attractiveness?" AnswerCollapse )

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Just quickly went through and removed some inactive journals and people who really don't have anything to do with me. Life long and prosper my friends!

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The life of every man is a diary in which he means to write one story, and writes another; and his humblest hour is when he compares the volume as it is with what he vowed to make it. - John M. Barrie

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